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why did you text all the people who have the most reason to hate you right now
i asked you to leave them alone

Jake kun suggested it!

[And was he going to ignore Hope? Was he? No.]

I need to fix it somehow, but now it's worse and I've made more problems for you. And Nanami san now....

[He's getting a headache...]

don't worry about it. just give them some space. if you're still texting them, stop. i mean it, just stop.

what do you mean, you've made problems for us?

[He just says "problems" but he means "more problems."]

[Thankfully Dirk had said to stop as well, and he had listened. Or half listened. As for not worrying it was already spiraling out of control. The anxiety, that generally was ever present, welling up to uncontrollable levels.]

No one can trust anyone that's connected to me. I had been expecting an act of nature, or random occurrence. But surly... surly this is also a manifestation. To spiral so far out of any means to repair.... It's not even fair, Nanami san has done nothing, she's barely connected to me as well. As things are.

Hinata kun, I feel that they need blood to be quenched and some sort of act of that nature will be the only way to be accepted again. I can't be here....

[He was losing it, again, but worse.]

Edited 2016-12-15 18:26 (UTC)

no, that's wrong
no one wants blood to be quenched, komaeda. you don't have to leave

you do need to avoid those people as much as you can. give them space, let tempers cool down. they're good people, komaeda. they're just concerned about their family.

it'd be hard for me not to be the same way if our situations were reversed, after all, and they'd done something to you

i'm not worried about nanami. you know as well as i do that she can win anyone over. and i knew what i was doing by taking responsibility for your life. it's fine if they don't trust me. trust is earned, and you broke theirs.

I'm glad you feel that way, but no one should do anything if something happens to me.

I don't need their trust, but why should it hurt the two of you? At the very least why should an innocent bystander get caught up? Only one person should have to take these consequences, not people who matter.

They're all so rude and vindictive!

everyone on this base matters to me
even annoying guys like karkat

we're all a team. we all want to solve the mystery of this planet. maybe we're not all hope's peak students, maybe we didn't all go through all the same things together, but that doesn't matter. we have to work together in this kind of absurd situation.

if they don't trust us now, then we'll just have to earn their trust.

we're classmates. this is our burden to bear. try to keep that in mind in the future.

Edited 2016-12-15 18:46 (UTC)

You could probably earn their trust if you gave them what they want.

[Though, Hinata was right, it was hard to really think about though. He still had a hard time thinking of himself as part of that group. He was still an outlier in his mind.]

Everything I touch becomes destroyed, I can't work with everyone.

give it time. you'll learn.

...maybe don't call someone to apologize and insult them at the same time, though.

I did not!

[Though he has to think about it a moment.]

But if someone is being purposefully idiotic, it's hard not to comment.

[Casually insulting people was always going to be a thing sadly.]

yeah, that. keep that kind of thought to yourself. or tell me later. don't point it out when you're trying to make someone like you.

It's just so frustrating when you're trying to have a reasonable conversation.

komaeda...
just trust me on this, ok?

I trust you....

[But, there was a big difference between trust in something and the ability to hold ones tongue in the moment, which did not have.]

However, I feel like you should do something to at least gain their favor. I don't particularly want to leave the base, and Ursula also agreed I shouldn't. So maybe locking me up would quell their anger a little. At least at you.

i'll handle it
they're not mindless beasts, you know.
they're my friends.

[Or at least, Dirk and Roxy are.]

let them think whatever they have to
as long as they're not hurting us, i don't care what they think of me. and like i said, they're not monsters. nanami will be just fine.

I don't trust she won't hurt either of you.

Edited 2016-12-15 19:22 (UTC)

roxy?

i went over that with her. she's a good friend of mine, and i trust her.

as long as you don't do anything to hurt her family, there's no reason to be afraid of her doing anything to us. the only reason she'd come after me or nanami is if we stood in her way to get to you.

so don't do anything to provoke her, ok? that's the best thing you can do to keep us from getting hurt.

Why would I hurt her family?

[This was getting more and more frustrating. He had no intentions of hurting anyone, but she had full intentions of hurting everyone connected with him.]

I feel really tired Hinata kun....

she considers karkat part of her family. they all have this weird relationship i don't want to question too much.

the point stands. you don't have to understand why she's willing to hurt me to get to you. you just have to make sure you don't put her in a position where she feels like she has to.

I didn't hurt him.

[He was tired of this argument.]

She made it sound like it doesn't matter what I do. The fact you haven't kicked me out, or don't want me dead is enough.

roxy said that?

That is the answer I've gotten from all of this.

[At least how he was understanding it, which was just making a feedback chamber of escalation.]

she's angry
she'll calm down
just give them time

no one is kicking you out of this base. even they won't do that if it would make URSULA sad. which i'm sure it would.

I think it would, but I don't know.

i won't let you be kicked out
not for something like this

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