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[hopefragment]

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[hopefragment]

[It's different, he wants to say. You have something you're good at. You have something you can work toward. I don't have anything like that.

Instead he pauses, takes a deep breath. That's almost like feeling sorry for himself again. He doesn't want to do that anymore, even if it still feels like it's crushing him. First, he has to defend his friends. Then he has to defend himself.]

you say that, but you don't know the people i've spent the most time with and the things we've been through together. people with incredible talents. you can't look down on that.

anyway, i already said i'm going to keep working. your list has a defined goal, something you're working toward. i don't have anything like that. that's why i have to keep looking.

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[gnasher]

i know people with incredible talent, too.

[people he's admired, laughed with, fallen short to, loved, hated, cried over, beaten at their game, befriended, felt distant from, felt close to, ignored, was unable to ignore]

their skills are nothing to look down on if they have them, but talent doesn't necessarily have anything to do with achieving or surviving. some people don't even want to be talented, because its too hard to be special. others never get to use their talents, and it breaks something in them.

[Rin is thinking of two dark haired boys he hasn't seen in a while, and it hurts, a bit. but it feels right, to share his brushes against real, raw talent with Hinata, who sounds like he works every bit as hard as Rin, and maybe more, because he doesn't even see what his own worth is]

[maybe because he understands so well, he should be gentler, but he can't allow Hinata to say such directionless, unobserved things]

you can't be serious about not having talent, right? you're working towards fixing something every time i see you. if it's not helping the sick people, or making clothes for the newcomers, it's fixing the structural damage. and if it's not that, it's making a volleyball for a stupid bunch of teens who need a break.

when you see a problem, you work, and you solve it. how is that not a talent to be proud of? you're the one who's looking down on your own skills.

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[hopefragment]

[He doesn't answer immediately; it might be safe to assume that thanks to a lack of text bubbles attempting to type while Rin is, Hajime may have just started to ignore his communicator to do something else. But while maybe that would be the better option, he's really just sitting there, reading it quietly to himself.

He's seen the way talent affects people -- it's hard not to think about Nagito, sometimes, and how his "luck" must have shaped that incredible malice Hajime and the others had experienced. Or the expectations of a yakuza learning about someone who might have been involved in his sister's death, or... the list goes on.

Before he could even begin to form a response to all of that, though, he reads the rest, just staring down at it. A... problem-solver...? On the island, he always felt like he needed someone like Chiaki or Nagito to help him find the truth. BUt these kinds of problems...]

i wouldn't call that talent. like i said... i don't want to sit around feeling sorry for myself. anyone would work to do the same, in their own way.

["Talent" is that thing that Hope's Peak scouts people for. Something like "problem-solving" might be a skill, might be something he's somewhat good at, but not to the point of being the best.]

but... thanks. i get what you're saying, really. maybe it's something i need to think about more.

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[gnasher]

[he wants to keep pushing it, but he's been made quite aware recently that trying to force others into making the choices he believes are for the best is a pretty shitty, toxic habit; if Hinata says he needs time to think about things, then he needs time, even if Rin ascribes more to the "sink or swim" approach]

[after all, Rin knows what it's like to fail over and over again at meeting your own absurdly high standards -- he's aiming to be one of the best in the world at swimming -- and he can't imagine what damage could have been done, if he'd been pushed too hard while struggling through his own doubts and insecurities]

[he likes Hinata. he wants what's best for him, he does, but he'll have to come to his own conclusions (unless they're completely stupid, in which case Rin doesn't mind continuing to push, of course)]

i'm aiming olympic. i know what it's like to feel as if hard work and best effort won't ever be enough in the face of innate talent.

[haru is more talented than him; that's a fact that has both crushed and excited him his whole life]

so if you wanna talk about it more after you've had some time to think, i'll be around.