[Yes, that definitely falls into the realm of things that are Not Cool. He exhales a ragged breath and rubs a hand over his face. He'd overreacted... another thing he hadn't thought he'd be capable of doing.]

Thanks. I just... wish there were a way I could have it both ways. Because I'm... I'm really happy, to have so many friends here. I wouldn't want to leave any of you, but...

I can't afford to be selfish.