[The words hit him like a blow. Of course it's easy to think the easiest thing: I never want to think about it again. Of course he wished he could stop thinking about it when he doesn't want to, which is most of the time. Of course he wishes it hadn't happened at all. Ninety-nine percent of it had been the worst experience of his entire life—and not just by a little. What happened on the island wasn't like coming down with some illness and being sicker than you ever thought possible, or any "worst experience" like that; it had been outside of what he'd thought a human being could take and stay sane. It had been like stepping into an entirely different reality from the one you lived in, that people weren't meant to ever see or survive in, and knowing every second of every day that you might never make it back to the reality you knew before.
That was what Hinata didn't want to forget.
And yet, when he puts it like that, Kazuichi realizes he can't disagree with him.
Was that one percent really worth the ninety-nine? Was having Hinata here to talk to worth the lives of all those people? No, but—]
Hey . . . where are you right now?
[He curls up tightly in his corner, head ducked and voice low.]
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[The words hit him like a blow. Of course it's easy to think the easiest thing: I never want to think about it again. Of course he wished he could stop thinking about it when he doesn't want to, which is most of the time. Of course he wishes it hadn't happened at all. Ninety-nine percent of it had been the worst experience of his entire life—and not just by a little. What happened on the island wasn't like coming down with some illness and being sicker than you ever thought possible, or any "worst experience" like that; it had been outside of what he'd thought a human being could take and stay sane. It had been like stepping into an entirely different reality from the one you lived in, that people weren't meant to ever see or survive in, and knowing every second of every day that you might never make it back to the reality you knew before.
That was what Hinata didn't want to forget.
And yet, when he puts it like that, Kazuichi realizes he can't disagree with him.
Was that one percent really worth the ninety-nine? Was having Hinata here to talk to worth the lives of all those people? No, but—]
Hey . . . where are you right now?
[He curls up tightly in his corner, head ducked and voice low.]